Lazy

Had to avail myself of more neighborhood services to get the fucking cum out of my nuts, this time via another visit from the somewhat stinky but supernaturally skilled cocksucker who did me a few weeks back. (He was noticeably less stinky today; that was nice.) Every new dude I try to get with lately flakes on me, all of a sudden, and I'm too uncomfortable with this cast on to just bid my time, let my sperm seriously back up and roil in my nuts, so when there's a sure thing, I am going for it. And honestly I'm enjoying it; it's pretty easy when you just let dudes who are constantly jonesing for your spooge just come get it, laying back and not really doing anything at all.  I'd say I'm getting a little lazy. I really just whip it out and make them go to work, no muss, no fuss, very unlike me. And it keeps me from getting all frustrated and tense sexually-- my life is frustrating and tense enough right now-- but to me, this is not real sex. I keep seeing dudes I want to sex up properly online. Beautiful asses I want to slobber on, worship, fill with my meat, whale with my tool. Muscles I want to lick and chew and sweat on. Faces I want to kiss and look at while I flood their bodies with my warm salty liquid pleasure. But instead, it's OK, come over, get me up, get me off, drink it down, take it home. This could be a little addictive. Ultra Meat is back to wanting me to tutor him-- does he think he can suck my dick every time? The diligent latin cocksucker checks me out at least twice a week. The hungry but affectless raw bottom is after me, checking me out, "woofing" me on Scruff, begging me to bone him at 2am on BBRT. They all live in my hood and giving them a little bit of attention makes them just want more. I can just lay back and get all the attention my dick can stand with all these dudes. But I miss the variety, can't wait to see and touch and fuck new men. I think I need a functioning right hand for that! For now, I just take the easy road.

The stinky cocksucker was all too happy to drive over today. He'd been checking me out periodically for weeks. He was very hungry today, sucking me with a much greater intensity than usual, getting a little toothy actually, practically devouring my meat. He had me hard quickly and close to cumming not much later, but I told him to keep me there and he did, till it was just too good. Somehow today he couldn't swallow all of me, and choked and spat out half of me all sticky and white, glomming up my pubes. Then he walked around my apartment, declaring it "fancy" and "a real lifestyle." He's an old-timer in the neighborhood and has changed immeasurably since he moved here. He was very curious bout my injury and lingered in the doorway, wanting to chat. The familiarity of the regular is nice. It's definitely soothing when I am in this uncomfortable, painful condition. So I am going with it.

But I can't wait to fuck again… really, really fuck.